He's not worth the dirt on my brand new shoes.

It's the first day of summer. All I wanna do for the next three months is spend time with my horses (Not that that's different from the other 9 months of the year), go to bonfires and listen to country music.

But I can't help but think what's coming in a week. It'll be a year since I met him. And in that past year, I've been thrown around the world and back again. Was it worth it? Maybe. But I learned. I learned I'm better than settling for. I'm better than him. I'm better than that .

I've determined what I'll have in a guy. Sure I want a tall guy, only because I'm tall myself. A decent body, I don't expect some Abercrombie model. But general muscles are nice. I want a cowboy. One who gets up at 6 to feed his cows or pigs or whatever, and would rather be on a horse or ATV that on an XBOX. A guy who knows the value of work AND what I do. As well as one who knows respect. One who can protect me. Maybe this is all sprouting from the country music I've been jamming into my iTunes. Above all, I want a guy who can point at me from across the room, or from the granstands while I'm competing and proudly say to anyone, "That's my girl".

"I'll pour out my heart
Hold your hand in the car
Write a love song that makes you cry
Then turn right around knock some jerk to the ground
'Cause he copped a feel as you walked by"

-I'm still a guy, Brad Paisley.

Yeah, I think that sounds pretty good to me.

2 More Days

Oh, hey there blog. Long time no talk. 

Three more days. I'm sitting in study hall with my hair down in shirts listening to the plain white tees, just waiting for summer. 

Having freedom is one of the best things a kid could ask for. I want to run through the grass barefoot feeling the sun on my shoulders and the warm breeze in my natural hair. It's an amazing feeling. The warmth is comforting. The bright flowers sprouting all around you. It makes you hungry and satisfied all at the same time. 

All that comes to my mind is smiles. Smiles make life worth it. Seeing the little kids splashing in their sprinklers, or being amazed by baby birds in the tree in their front yard. It's so exhilarating. 

For me it's the beginning of show season. With my horse every day making sure he looks his best for any shows coming up. And FAIR. Oh fairs. They're fantastic. They make you gain 10 pounds just looking at them, but they're delightful. 

I hate being cooped up in my room. I may start posting videos as blogs. Simply because I feel that videos versus blogs are like summer versus winter. Everything is more vivid. It allows for imagination and recognition. It's amazing how intensely the brain can pick things out if videos, without you even knowing. 

Oh right... I'm still sitting in study hall. Two more days. Then, Im free.