I'm a teenage girl. I hate things about myself. It doesn't matter how bad I think I want to not give a shit about what others think, because in the end I give into it anyway.
-I want to be skinnier. Much skinnier.
-I want an entirely different face. My chin is too small and my cheeks and jaws are too big. I hate my forehead and my eyes are hideous.
-I want to be smaller. Who wants a 6' tall solid girl?
-I want to be a dancer again.
-I want to be tanner.
-I want a prettier smile.
-I want to be smarter.
-I want to not have 493094839 chins.
-I want a smaller nose.
-I want a non-obnoxious laugh.
-I want prettier hair.
-I want to be the girl that everyone thinks is gorgeous. All of the time.
I love my boyfriend so much, but since we've been dating, I'm constantly worrying about how I look. I met him with wet hair and no makeup looking like a hippo in a too small bikini. And he loved me then. But since last night, I feel like things are different. Last night I was all dressed up, and had tons of pictures taken of me. I hate all of them. I look hideous. I just don't know what to do. I feel so pulled apart. I love him more than anything, and I just wish I could be sure that he doesn't look at other girls thinking "she's hotter than my girlfriend." Because regardless of what he looks like, I think he's the best looking guy in the world. Inside and out.
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